A Little Too Personal...

September 15, 2013

I'm feeling IT again. 
I'm feeling that feeling I felt when we started trying to have a baby. But so soon? 

Riggins is only 3.5 months. I CAN'T be feeling it again right now. Am I nuts? Probably. I need to at least fit into my skinny jeans first. I have been having weird dreams about getting pregnant and it consumes my every thought. This can't be possible. My doctor told us to wait 9 months before we try again because of my C-Section. I told my doctor I would wait 6 months--just because I'm a rebel:) I need to heal..i need to heal..blah blah..everyone keeps telling me this. I don't want to try toooo soon and mess up my body. But I also can't keep ignoring this feeling. I just can't seem to shake it no matter how hard I try! Everyone says it's because I am in the honeymoon baby stage and that the feeling will pass. I don't know. I don't think it will. When I set my mind to something or when I get a feeling I need to do something i usually never leaves. Heavenly Father knows how I work. Does He care when I have another baby? Does He want me to wait and listen to the doctor? Or does He know there is a little spirit up there really anxious to come down to us. I'm trying to be prayerful but I feel like I'm praying and telling Heavenly Father what I want instead of asking what He wants. Have you ever done that...prayed for what you wanted instead of asking for guidance? Maybe I should turn to prayer again. and again. and again. I mean, I'm still nursing and haven't gotten my period yet. Is it even possible to get pregnant?

I took a pregnancy test last night (in secret). There was only ONE chance I could be pregnant. I was so sad when it was a negative.

My biological clock is ticking loudly and won't stop. I hear it always. 
STOP IT. STOP. STOP. STOP. 
Can we realistically have another baby? Am I ready to be a 2 kid mom? Probably not..still learning how to be a mom! Maybe we need to start trying again because we are going to have issues like we did last time.(read here).That would make sense. Hunter tells me that he wants me to heal first before we try for another. I secretly hope I get pregnant All. The. Time. I keep making deals with the husband---How about I lose the rest of my baby weight and then we try again. Deal? No deal. He wants to listen to our doctor for some weird reason. Do I want the cramping and the itching and the dry heaving and the charlies horses and the swollen feet and the nights of tossing and turning? NO. Do I want another baby? YES. We may need to start NOW because of our history. It might take a few tries to get it right again?
 Has anyone ever had this same feeling? Did you listen to it or ignore it? Am I just plain crazy? I mean, I already have our next 3 baby names picked out:) Help me.

11 comments:

  1. Same thing happened to me. Why do you think you and Gerald are so close in age? You are not crazy. You will know what you need to do!

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    1. Love you. Yeah..a year and 2 days is pretty dang close:)

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  2. Same thing happened to me and I still want to try...I'm just hoping we slip up! I don't believe in birth control! I know I sounds crazy but it took us a while to get pregnant with maddie and I think birth control just messed up my body. Our deal is no birth control until we are done having kids. I know that's not what everyone would want, it's a personal decision, it just wasn't worth it to me to mess with my body again. We got pregnant with cannon the first try, something I didn't think would happen. But one tip for c section, again it's vey personal so do what you feel is right. The more c sections you have the more you tend to be limited on how many kids you can have, with every c section the risks get higher. I wanted cannon to be a VBAC so bad just so I could be the one who said I was done having babies not because of a medical reason. Not to sway other way, but their is omethin o be said to healing after a c section. With ha said IAm BABY HUNGRY TOO!!!!!

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    1. Oh my goodness. This comment made me miss you even more than I already do. I'm hoping you slip up too. lol. Thanks so much for the advice...it means a lot coming from you!!Was Canon a VBAC?

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  3. You caught baby fever! But i think you're just a momma at heart and want your babies *now*. I'm starting to get that itch but know i'm in no place to have my kids yet- i wish i was though! i think you should wait those 6 months to be on the safe side (you don't want to endanger that little one!) but i feel you on the antsiness. Good luck with whatever you decide, but don't forget to have fun with the baby you already have ;)

    xo marlen
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    1. Thanks for the advice! It's so true that I need to just enjoy the time I have with my new baby and spoil him rotten. I'll never have that chance again to be home with just one little guy! I love reading your comments..you are the coolest. Thanks!

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  4. I have the same feeling everyday all day. "Amanda needs a little life friend" unfortunately for us. It is not an option. The Lord knows I would be so incredibly ESTATIC! But...... Brian no bueno (you know what I mean). Speaking from being on bed rest from both (veRRRRy far apart) pregnancies. Wait just a bit. But oh how FUN! when the new little spirit arrives!
    You ARE so wonderful!

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    1. I"m glad I am not the only one who feels this. I didn't know you were on bed rest..that is crazy! Love your cute kids:)

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  5. I've been married for 6 months and I'm feeling it. Especially after my MIL reminded me that if I want more than one I should probably get started because I'm not as young as her daughter/other daughter-in-laws when they got married. And here's my sweet husband just wanting to enjoy newlywed life a little longer. I feel you Lace!

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    1. I can't wait for you to have a little human!!!!

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