To My Boys

 To my boys:

Nothing can prepare you for becoming a parent. No book or magazine or stories from other parents. It is truly incredible how unprepared you really are. How unprepared I was. I can’t believe how much love I had for both of you the second you were born.  This feeling of wanting to always keep you safe and to never let you go. To look into your eyes and tell you every minute how much I love you. I think about you about a million times a day. I worry about you every time you fall—I want to take away all the pain you feel. I think about your future and how I can help you now to become the men Heavenly Father wants you to be.  I love you with such intensity and passion that sometimes I feel like my heart will explode.You both challenge us with every new phase, and every single development. You both love our kisses. Your smiles melt us. Every time.

Being your mom has changed who I am. Changed the way I think and how I see the world. It’s changed my priorities and goals. It’s changed how I think and the decisions I make. You’ve given my life color and depth and meaning and dimension.

Please know that I will love you everyday and forever with all of me. More that I knew even existed.

Photography by my dear friend,  @sallymae